my online journal where i document my finding of the weekly or daily life.
Today i woke up thinking about him again. At this point can i go to a doctor because it has been years and i dont want to think about him every waking day. Atleast I am spared of him in my dreams. Last night my snail mail was waiting for me when i opened the door, on my floor. I read it and it talked about how Love is not something we should anticipate but something we learn or purposely do. I think i have been waiting for something or someone radical to come and save me. I just want to be careless but also thoughtful. When I get home my cleo simone planner will be waiting for me. It is almost two months late but technically right on time. You see the planner is Year of the horse theme and that began yesterday. I think maybe that was a nice joke God played on the creator and her costumers who so brazenly wanted a year of the horse planner in the year of the snake. Maybe what I ordered in life is like that too. Maybe what I ordered is coming for a different season in my life. I can live with that however It should still come while im alive and youthful.You see if the planner came next year surely I would get my money back. What have I spent to place my order of happiness? Today and today can nver be replaced. All this to say this order has to come because it cannot be refunded like money. Can we sue the universe? who oversees that? God?
To be discussed.....
To Be Imagined....